As I was driving along the backroads of Route 66, I ended up behind a car sightseeing at a 40 mph pace (through a 65 mph zone), and something wondetful happened. The cars & trucks that wanted to drive fast simply passed around us, and I was able to relax and begin to enjoy the drive. And feeling the stark difference helped me to draw an important parallel between driving while towing the trailer and "driving" my brain.
My brain is a 40 mph brain living in a 75 mph world.
The world around me moves too fast and furious for my brain to process, so it gets overwhelmed. That's why I work so hard to control my environment. And if I could simply travel through life at a pace that my brain can process as I go, then I think I could manage that pretty well.
So I am excited about using the parallel process between driving while towing and my brain to help strengthen my self-confidence around living life at my own pace, especially when the people around me don't understand...and "expect" me to be driving at warp speed when it's just not possible for me to do so!
I really want to enjoy life...to enjoy MY life...because all I get is one shot to get this right. So I can no longer afford spending my life energy trying to force my brain to keep up with the world around me.
This insight is very helpful to understand how to best support my brain, but it does make me wonder if it means that I am destined to be "flying solo" for the rest of my life...or are there people whose pace is able to more closely align with my own? I don't know, of course, but my curiosity is piqued.
For today, I am catching my breath and feeling content to slow down to a life pace where I can process...and it feels pretty darned good.
