Preparing for this journey, the "worst case scenario" plan has been to take it one day at a time...one mile at a time...enjoy the journey along the way...and if the car crapped out, then I would simply settle in to wherever I was, find work, save up for the car repairs, then trudge on once I was prepared to do so.
The plan is still the plan in motion...I just wasn't expecting to be stopped in my tracks so quickly.
I'm very glad that I have taken my time during this first part of the journey...to work out the bugs...and also to let the aging car settle in to a new normal towing two thousand extra pounds, because I am close enough to all of the support resources that I both need and trust (while I get the car repairs and trailer upgrade completed).
It's all good...I'm safe...Sarra's safe...the car & trailer are in good hands...and we're living the dream already.
Am I disappointed that I need to take this extra time so soon along the journey? Absolutely...but living the open-ended life is all about responding to what's immediately in front of me, and letting go of the self-imposed arbitrary deadlines, so that's precisely what I'm doing...slowly...grieving a bit along the way...and embracing the joy that I am already living each day.
This trip to Nova Scotia isn't just about Nova Scotia...it's all about the journey of discovery along the way. And I don't want to circumvent that by simply cutting a beeline path to the Atlantic Northeast. So, I just need to continue to follow the plan, because it's a good plan....and it's the plan that will eventually GET me to Nova Scotia...lol.
What's immediately in front of me is a large financial output that's necessary for the journey to continue...then save up again for the gas money east. I'm not deterred from the vision, I'm just temporarily detoured, which is not the same thing at all.
Life is unpredictable, and so is the journey along the way. I am looking for the unexpected gifts that await discovery along this detour, because I am certain they will present themselves once the disappointment has worked itself through its own timing and process.
Expectation shapes reality.
So, the most immediate gift is to be able to spend more time with Denny...and, even if that is the only gift that emerges, then it is worth whatever time I will need to take care of business and prepare for the next season of change.
Of course, I am quite anxious to explore everything that Nova Scotia has to offer, but I am not in a hurry to get there. It's just like "having the sex" and "playing the tunes" lol...I really do want to enjoy all of the visits with friends and family along the way.
So, I guess I have another opportunity to once again let go of my expectations, and simply let the joy unfold before me...
