The Dark Hedges, Northern Ireland

The Dark Hedges, Northern Ireland
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Saturday, February 5, 2011

God Knows Me by the Scars I Bear

In the very last chapter of The Odyssey, Odysseus is disguised when he approaches his father after being lost at war with the endless thwarted attempts to return home for nineteen very long years. His father is disconsolate, and when Odysseus breaks his disguise, his father wants "proof" that he is, in fact, his son. Hence, Odysseus is again identified by his scars.

Thinking more on this, I realize that "scar" implies an incontrovertible truth, because a scar is formed only when a wound has healed. In fact, the scar is the actual "evidence" that a wound has essentially completed its healing process! What a glorious piece of truth about wounds and scars and the miracle of healing.

This makes me then think that scars are actually evidence of a God blessed miracle, as many of the wounds received over the course of my life could have actually killed me many times over. It doesn't mean the scars aren't painful, or that they haven't changed the course of my life, but it does mean that the wound itself is healed. And what a wonderful gift, to know that my scars reveal that the grace of God's healing has already forgiven the wound's injury. . . and so must I.

But oh how the lingering pain can blind and cause us to lash out and slash through both flesh and spirit!

God knows every wound I have ever received. . . .and also every wound I have inflicted upon others in my own lashing out. . . .but what a most glorious God who not only knows me by the  scars I bear, but finds me beautiful and loves me in spite of them! I think that I will find the grace of God I seek within my own spirit when I am able to honestly and completely love my self (and others), hiddeous scars and all. . . .